I just learned that I will be missing a friend's baptism here in Germany. That day will also be a church potluck, so I will be missing that too. (Before you feel too sorry for me, you should know I am missing this day to attend a retreat in Switzerland- tough, right?)
There are other things I am missing out on, mostly in the U.S.. Last weekend my good friend's baby (and namesake of Adam) was dedicated at church. How I would have loved praying over her with the rest of the Southbrook family and being one of the Aunt Kate's with her that day.
Also last weekend my newest niece was born, and two months ago another new niece was born. I have been fortunate enough to receive lots of pictures and even 'meet' them via web cams. I also keep telling myself that when I get to see them in person in two years or so it will be better because then they will know who I am and be able to talk and hang out with me. But it still stinks.
I also was absent for some deaths. And while not happy occasions, I wanted to be there to help in some way two special families who were so caring towards me when Adam died.
I also missed a very close friends tonsillectomy. Which may not seem like a huge deal, but I wish I could be there to bring her ice cream, babysit or just watch a movie with her while she is on medication. ;)
And tonight my Southbrook small group is having a picnic. Reading all the e-mails about who was bringing what left me wishing I was with them, and hungry!
Some of these events were small, some were huge. I know I will miss out on many more events in the future. And it honestly does stink sometimes, but it's okay. I know it must sound odd to say it stinks and that it's okay in the same sentence, and maybe it is not theologically sound to do so, but it's true.
And I'm not complaining, okay, maybe I am. But I'm not just complaining. I know there has been SO much I have gotten to be a part of here. There is so much I would have missed out on here. The friends, new and old, in and out of the church; learning this great language (I really do enjoy it most of the time); seeing God provide for me here in so many tangible and intangible ways; seeing the country side transform from the foggy winter mornings to the bright and vibrant fresh spring days...
And I would have missed on being specially invited to my friend's baptism.
So, while missing out on things in the States have made me feel a little homesick, being part of so much here in Germany has made me feel at home.
"Steep yourself in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Don't be afraid of missing out. You're my dearest friends! The Father wants to give you the very kingdom itself."
Luke 12:30 from The Message
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